tis all odd. i haven't felt so mindlessly empty in so long. everything has lost its flavour, my chest feels odd and tight and very constricted and somehow i cant seem to string my words together properly anymore. i wanna do soverymany things and its frustrating me to NO END that i cant that i cannot that i dont have the power dont have the means dont have the energy to fight to change to alter what i've been born into.
and i dont even have you around.
not to self: stop wishing and start LIVING for a change.
first on my xmas list is a hundred million dollars in cold.hard.cash.
imy.<3